Having Sex with a Pornstar.

Going back about three and a half years is the best way to start this. At the time, I was 21 years old, and by some chance, I got a job that paid a lot of money. Going forward about six months, I worked hard, made money, and most importantly, met new people. After moving across the country for work, I had been single for a while. I met a lot of pretty girls, but nothing ever clicked.

Even though people have told me I'm pretty, I still have low self-esteem and sadness, and I'm really sexually unhappy right now. I know I could have hired a prostitute, but that didn't seem like a good idea. I didn't just want sex; I wanted to do something. I wanted to work with a real model on a porn movie.

It seems crazy and almost impossible. However, I studied film and learned a lot about camera views and how to use cameras in general, so I'm sure I could do all the camera work myself. And it's not as hard as you think to hire an amateur or new actress, which may or may not shock you. After putting an ad on a few sites that hire amateur pornstars, I got a few more that I thought I would. Because the ad said I would pay well, I got a lot of job offers from women at first. But I already said I wanted a real actress, not just a prostitute or whore. They were mostly women who had never been in front of a camera before too. Some well-known names did respond, but they weren't even close to being local, and their prices were way too high.

As the weeks went by, fewer and fewer people responded to the ad. I began to believe that my…